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Main bht bht bht sad hun….

I am leaving my job..I will miss my colleagues a lot.I feel like crying badly.

I know its for good…Everything happens for reason…Yeah , I know what all to do to console me…

Can i get hugs….

Byee..

I would not be here for quite a few days now…

Hope , you guys miss me…

Love ya…

“Millions of spiritual creatures walk the earth unseen, both when we sleep and when we awake.”
John Milton


I believe in Angels ,I have faith that God has sent some special guardian Angels in our life who protect us from evil.Angels could be of different types.A few of them only come to us when we are in trouble,They come to us as  strangers , take us out of hurdles and leave for Heavens.A few of them are God’s favorite who always stay with them and sing glories.

One specific kind of Angels are childish ,notorious and Naughty by nature.They play mischief like children and love to create confusion on Earth.They do not willingly hurt people but the child in them is naughty enough to do it.They always make you smile.They love to have get together s , dance in parties, get drunk and play mischief s.I have one such Angel in my life, Mansi Mehta .

She is the Naughty Angel of my life who always makes em smile and hugs me tight like a baby even id we had hugged just an hour before.She has a heart of Gold.As I mentioned above,such breed of angels are half human .They make mistakes and cry too.They smile and make everyone smile wherever they go.They are themselves unaware of their Origin from Paradise.Angels in heavens search for them and they hide as they love to be on earth.lolz.

She is someone who makes me feel life is beautiful.She becomes an entire group to hang out with alone .I do not really feel the need for someone else to join as she completes my bunch.Its wonderful how she makes me feel and how special I feel with her.Being half human , she is good to gossip with too.lols.

She is like a tiny tot who has a very pure heart and immense love to share.The smallest of things they do for us makes us feel blessed.The touch of paradise could be the reason.They make you feel you are living in heavens as they pass on the positivity and purity of their thoughts by their touch and their words.

I feel really really special to live in her heart.These Angels make me survive in the cold universe with the warmth of love to share.


I love you…


And I know where are you from….


;) ;)

P.S – let the Naughty Angels in your life know we know about  their Origin .

The Road to Love

I have collaborated the post with my sweetheart Mayank http://www.whatthefckisgoinon.in/

It was a rainy December day in Delhi. The ice cold weather was giving countless people a reason to stay indoors and just sleep. But perhaps nothing in the city that day was as cold as her eyes as she stood near her car. She was feeling dead from inside and the unspeakable agony was too much to bear.

Her only hope was the promise she had made to herself long time back. “I will never lose to myself”, as she remembered her words; she felt a renewed urge to fight.

She wanted to break free from all the things this world cherished. She hated the ugliness that people often hid behind their fake sugar-coated words.

She hated the much-prevalent hypocrisy. She wanted to reclaim her life. Every ounce of her was screaming out only one word: Freedom. She had to choose between that or the voices coming from the background urging her to give in and ‘join the crowd’.

She looked at her car and the open wet road ahead, looking pretty after the cool winter rain. And she knew her answer.

She did not gave it a second thought as she would waver from her decision.She jumped in the car and drove me it far away.Her eyes were shinning like twinkling stars.

The smile on her face made her look truly beautiful.Her inner soul had freed herself from the chains of society.Although, the roads were unraveled ,she knew exactly where to go as her destination was a vision in her mind clear like dew drops on leaves Early Morning.

The wet roads seemed like mirror and she could see herself smiling like the entire universe was celebrating her Freedom.The sky looked peaceful,The stars twinkling brighter and the Moon wanted to come down to her to gaze at her Beauty in moonless night .

As she drove and drove listening to Lucky Ali and Verve, she noticed another car on the roadside with a guy standing at its edge just looking at the nice stars. She felt a weird need to get down and ask him who he was. She gave in to that temptation and stopped her car.

As she approached the guy, his perfect face became crystal clear in moonlight. Perfect black hair, lines of deep thought on forehead and a look that would scare everyone away. But not her. She felt something right as she approached him to ask who he was, in that silent night.
To be continued…
When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I…

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I…

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Yeah , I am irrevocably in love.The feeling of ” Love” is what makes me come back to life.

I can’t tell you now
You’re not here to listen to what I’ve got to say
All my words unplanned
Just like us they are waiting
To come together
I don’t know if we’re ready to take our chance

But I, oh I, I’m gonna fix this world up for you
I’ll try, I’ll try to build it all around you
You’ll never gonna have to be alone
You’ll always know you got someone
To fix the world up for you

Well I’ll bet I’ll get it wrong
More times that I get it right
And I won’t even realize it
But I’ve been doing all I can
To stop you falling
Even now I’m holding my breath for you

But you don’t know, you don’t know
That I’m ready to hold you now, hold you now

I, oh I, I’m gonna fix this world up for you
I’ll try, I’ll try to build it all around you
You’ll never gonna have to be alone
Yeah you’ll alway now you got someone
To fix the world up for you

Gonna fix the world up, up for you
Gonna fix the world up, up for you
Gonna fix the world up, up for you

You know what , I am feeling short of words today.I feel there is so much to be said and yet words do not come out..Silence is what I want you to read.I want you to read my eyes which are filled with tears .I want you to read my lips which are struggling to bring a fake smile.Read my chin which wavers and shivers as words are stopped somewhere from coming out.

Read the movements my fingers are making to let you know I am hurt .Read my eyes which ask you to hug me tight and tell me , ” I am always there for you”.Incredible,A hug could be at times.Isn’t it amazing How we tend to forget all the worries of our lives in an instant in someone arms.It is one of the best ways to express our Love for someone and to pass on the warmth of it.Divine..

I hope, I am not sounding weird..I need to talk..or I ‘ll break down.I am resigning from my job.It was my decision.As in my last post ,I said , Letting go is not easy for me.In some earlier posts,I had even mentioned Witches in my life as my colleagues..Keeping them aside,I had a wonderful time.I met a few angels too – whom I had keep close to my heart forever.But something is pinching me.It could be the change in my life…What I hate .Although,I have my exams coming in December and someone special had asked me to make it 70% this time,Its still hurting me.

I do not know what to do,I need lots of hugs for sure…I need to be alone with myself.I came to my paradise,My blog where i spread pearls of wisdom by a Simple Soul..Perfect place to seek for peace and love.I want to listen to some beautiful songs.I want to have a drunk party to forget everything.Want to say to myself , “ Life goes on girl”.Its only because I have not learned to believe it , I keep reciting it to learn.We used to speak our lessons ten times when we could not learn it.Same ways.lolz..

I want to cry badly for no good reason to cry..Isn’t it stupid to cry because you are quitting your job for better opportunities that awaits you.So stupid and illogical of me.But again ,that’s what i am.And it’s not my first time.Still..every time, I cry.Bad girl, they say.

I myself want to grow up now.Enough of Bachpana now.I still want to go on talking and boring you…But , jao maaf kia…

The feeling of letting go is something I have not yet learned to be comfortable with.I hate changes in my life, be the slightest of them.changing jobs,changing places, changing friends.Why can’t things be same ?

I hate myself for being an” Emotional Fool”.That’s what I am.I just can’t let things and people go easily from my life. I just hate the word ” Change”.The feeling of let go , I can’t take it .It makes me weak, It makes me cry ,It makes me loose control.God, Why do you do this with me ? Firstly, you created only specific breed of human beings whom i can feel at ease with and Then you want to  take all of them away.Why do you want me to be strong ? Why do you always make me believe ,I can live without their Love.I can’t …..

You love to see me yearning for Love…

I will not let that happen..I will not…

Destiny is a controversial term in my dictionary.It amazes me and startles me.Yet , I feel sometimes,It never existed.We see ourselves as we are in the relationships we share with people.I read it somewhere and I truly believe in it.Some relationships stay with us throughout our lives without any efforts.Quite a few come and go without even letting us know they are gone.A very few of them go and come back to us wanting us all the more .Its strange a beautiful phenomena.

I have closely studied myself and found Supernatural , Intense and Passionate Love is what is a part of me.My love is unending and the only thing i seek for survival.90 % of the times , I am not in the world i see but in the world I love to be.Loneliness does not kills me unlike a few men.I seek eternity and perfect contentment in silence.I love to be alone in my thoughts where Its only me .I do not seek for any compliments or understanding in my world.I , myself am more than enough to have a complete universe.

Its when my soul travels back to this earth,I seek for Love.Undying and Unending passionate love.A very few relationships in this universe entangles me.I have not found much souls who know their worth , they are content in being mere bodies.The relationships ,I have created in my life are worth my life.I can’t think of my life without them.

One such bond in my life I had like to keep with me till further coming lives.I met a  girl when i was  admitted in nursery.I shared my surname with her.I came to know our parents were good friends.We became friends.The first relationship of my life which I had chose for myself .We played together.We made sketches together.We made stories together.

Time went by and we grew old.We were teenagers now.Although , always being together, we never could be best of friends.A kind of cold war existed between us which kept us away.Surprisingly, we had clashes on crushes as we happened to like the same guy.We failed to realize how similar were we.School days were about to end.We came closer as the minds had grown up too.I felt at ease with her,completely at ease.

We happened to be neighbors , school buddies and college friends too.We became perfect friends when we shared the English Literature.It tied us together in a never ending bond.When i feel like discussing with someone about the things that do not exist or people believe us insane to talk about,I feel she is the best person to talk too.The kind of quality of our conversations is divine.When i know something had touched me deeply , I know she felt the perfectly same way.Its divine, I truly believe.Being Capricorn and Taurus pair too, we share the perfect compatibility.She is one of the fewest creatures on earth with whom I can talk endless.

In a way , Destiny has kept us together.We always get into our real selves no matter we had met after years.I perfectly match with her soul.She is a beautiful human being , rarest of all , I had say.I feel its like a God’ own gift to me .A blessing from God which makes me feel Divinity among us.God wants us to be together always and I want to be with you in coming lives too.We have grown up together and I wish to see us old together too.

Love you a lot.

hell, do i care

Its been ” Too Much” Of everything now.I want to cry badly..I need someone to lend me his shoulders and let me cry whole night.I want someone to ask me hundred times , “What happened Baby” even when every time I say , “Nothing”.

I am fed up of the false relations and masked faces.I want to breathe in pure love,pure unconditional love.It tears me inside to see How ruthless people could be ?Especially girls, where is the innocence in them lost ,where are the etiquette .How can they forget they represent Love and Sacrifice.I can never be  a part of you.I am proud to be alone than being with such crooks.I had always had N number of Witches  in my life,ready to suck out the last drop of blood in you.

Now,I understand why do people say , ” I am still a kid” or call me “Angel” or say they ” Love the way I love”.They all have met the bitches too.Such women destroy the homes they get married into,They bring an end to diligence and courtesy in Office premises.They are the reason why men loose faith in love and make lust their life.I have seen the worst of human beings as my colleagues in my present job.The so called “Corporate World “is a dirty,filthy place where dead bodies come and work.They are emotion -less and fatigue less.They do not have hearts as only mind survives in them which works at the speed of devil’s mind.

“I love kids and old aged people,Its all those in between , I can’t stand”. I am worried for myself.I have started hating men and women to the extent , I feel like killing myself. Why am I here among all the bloody crooks?I am not one of those.I can’t listen all of it,I can’t see it and I never wish to speak all of it.One Witch said to another about the most polite man I had ever seen , 55 years old who is suffering from deadly diseases , ” Is he still alive ?”The other Witch laughs and says ,” Unfortunately,he is”.What do i do ?Should i kill them or kill myself as I have survived in such a world.

I really doubt what kind of families they have and How the hell have they been born and brought up.Bloody Witches who have come on earth to suck our blood.Had they used their master minds in doing something constructive,We would have been the Most Advanced Nation.When i see such breed, I get a feeling of horror movies and black magic and I can visualize them sitting together in a moonless night wearing black dresses praying to their Devil in moonless nights.They all belong to one category “Witches”and they have  a Mother God who trains them how to create havoc at their particular allotted places.

On a serious note ,I feel they are poor victims deprived of love all their lives.Their parents treated the like Waste,Their boyfriends or husbands seek only lust in them and have relations outside.They have been so much deprived of Love , They seek only for hatred.They love to be hated and If anyone dares to love them , Dares to…They get confused.They do not know how to reciprocate love.I feel pity for them and their Lives.

On a much serious note,Such Witches only make me feel how blessed my life is,How my love scares them,How deprived they are to not feel the beauty of Love.Such a life is worth ending when no body dares to love you.

Real Dreams ;)

Life could be so unfair at times.Pre-Destination and Free Will had always been a debatable issue.Why is it that things do not work out despite the best of our efforts.What should we believe in unknown power called,Destiny or the free will that makes choices and they become our destiny.When I keep trying hard for things and they seem to be going far away from me.The desire to have it dies inside me.I GIVE UP.

Rhonda Byrne’s ” Secrets” is about how the things and events we think about or we see ourselves at the places we want to be, They come out true.It brings immense positivity in me to read such books but circumstances depict something which is not said.It says , ” The law of attraction says that like attracts like,and when you think and feel what you want to attract on the inside,the law will use people ,circumstances and events to magnetize what you want.”

I do keep thinking of being a successful writer and a loved human being.I do think of a well paid and highly respectable job ( respect counts more to me than money).I think of marrying my Perfect Man and having perfect in laws.Having a Family that would stand by my side against the whole world.A home where love would cherish forever and quarrels would end in an instant.I think of having stability and complete freedom in my life.I think of freeing myself from all the bandages and flying up high in the sky.A life which would be as I like.Would I attract everything i think about ?

The most important action to take is the work within you .When that is done,You will be moved in the outside world to receive what you asked for .

—Work within me is being confident about my Dreams and believing my dreams would be a reality.Our mind has millions of thoughts every moment.It travels from distant lands to shallow seas , from past childhood to future scenes.Its near beach at the moment and on mountains very next.There equally are infinite dreams.My mind works against my heart .It says what heart dreams is unrealizable.Due to the rivalry between my heart and mind, my dreams shiver and break into pieces.


You are a human transmission tower, transmitting a frequency with your thoughts. If you want to change anything in your life, change the frequency by changing your thoughts.  Your current thoughts are creating your future life. What you think about the most or focus the most will appear as your life.

I did read somewhere the thoughts we generate are dependent on our past experiences , the environment around us and the belief of the inside soul.I believe in the simplicity of my soul .I know my dreams would come true one day.My thoughts are my own.I think of good but all i see is vulgar and bad.I see selfish hearts, cruelty and treachery around me.I see man turning into beasts and animal in the core of human heart.My thoughts take a negative turn when i see all of it.My past experiences state I had not always been right in my decisions.So, I doubt them now.My thoughts, the current state of mind is more than positive about Love.I had always been lucky to have love in my life as I was willing to give away lots of it.My thoughts about my future partner , my career, my future life wavers.I can see negativity around me which unknowingly or knowingly affects my thoughts in a way my future.

You cannot help the world by focusing on the negative things. As you focus on the world’s negative events, you not only add to them, but you also bring more negative things into your own life.

The perfect answer to my problem is mentioned above.Thinking about Negativity would only add it to my life.Positive thoughts come to me in loneliness.When i look inside me , i find peace.The conclusion could be I have to be alone to realize my dreams.My dreams would turn to reality when i move  away from the negativity that surrounds me.I need to break the chains and come out free.

Many people in Western culture are striving for success. They want the great home, they want their business to work, they want all these outer things. But what we found in our research is that having these outer things does not necessarily guarantee what we really want, which is happiness. So we go for these outer things thinking they’re going to bring us happiness , but it’s backward. You need to go for the inner joy, the inner peace, the inner vision first, and then all of the outer things appear.

Early in morning , A colleague of mine was reciting to us her sister’s love story and how their story actually says ,” They lived happily ever after”.My colleagues was not allowed to work or go out with friends late at nights.In a way , being caged at home.Her married life turns out to be beautiful as she lives life free.What she had never expected has become a reality.( She had always been brought up to be a good daughter and a good wife).

Her sister had a totally different life.She told her parents straight , ” Its my life and it would be as i want”.She never helped her mother in household chores and when she was scolded for it, she always said i would never need to do all this as a kid.She turned out to be a big girl in love with someone whom she happily gets married to.The girl visits her mother with in laws.The curious mom asks , ” Has she learned anything to cook”.The mother in law says, ” She cooks delicious food”.The girl who had never entered kitchen at her in laws home too.When she inquires about it with her mother in law , she says ,” You are my daughter now, Our respect and we know how to handle”.The girl probably had always thought of having a perfect family and she attracts it in her life.

A person who sets his or her mind on the dark side of life, who lives over and over the misfortunes and disappointments of the past, prays for similar misfortunes and disappointments in the future. If you will see nothing but ill luck in the future, you are praying for such ill luck and will surely get it.


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