Archive for August, 2010

Bring me back those days !!

Scribbling Gal tagged me for it.

Here,it goes..

What was your favorite back to school item to buy ?

Colorful pens,I guess.I loved keeping all the things in order – pens ,pencils,scale,eraser and sharpener.

What was your favorite subject in school ?

English . I had always been a favorite of my English Teachers.Still remember – Mr.Jose and Mrs.Sangeeta.

Did you ride the bus or got a ride from Mom / carpool ?

I had a cab to school which never reached on time.My friends were more attentive towards the school gate than the morning prayer.lolz. The only punishment I can remember of school days was due to getting late.

Do you have  a sack lunch or cafeteria food ?

Usually , I had homemade food to school.It was always enjoyable to have a variety of mom’s made food during lunch break.I do remember , waiting in a line for a samosa in canteens too.

What is your favorite memory from your school days ?

Quite a lot of them !! I remember those last days in 12th standard which are the most cherished moments of my life.The whole class as one- no groups.playing truth and dare.

I do remember one incident in Maths class.My teacher asked me to sit down on floor cause i had not completed my homework.I cried a lot and my friends still tease me for that day.

I remember those birthdays when a greeting card or  a gift from a classmate meant  a lot .Being flourished by them was an awesome experience.

Valentines day , new proposals,breakups and patch ups,Teachers day,farewell party,fests,annual day,Christmas celebrations.

Writing our names on desks,craving for that corner seat of the class,Three of us sharing one book,writing down notes for my friends,preparing fro an assembly,decorating that bulletin board,envying science students due to their free classes.

Whispering into ears during morning prayer,Giggling at our friends who got caught for their mischief,Sending text messages to each other in classes.

Someone fetch me back those days !!!!

Missing all the fun in life !!!!

Love makes me insane ..

Love is a  feeling that makes me go insane.When i think of me and him looking into each others eyes in rain.when the drops of water drench us inside making us lost in a different world.

When i think of getting crazy in rain with him.The feeling of utter happiness felt in someone’s arms.

The feeling of one soul and one heart between two human beings.The intensity of passion and love crossed all limits and god unites in them as one.

When i do crazy things and feel so good about them.I think of him and do silly things and enjoy it.

When i find things on my work table very very romantic.

When i drink coffee  and think of him and find myself surrounded by love all around.

When I look at my PC and love surrounds me again.

When every single heart beat of me tries to say the same thing.

sexy,saucy n cool

1. “All women do have a different sense of sexuality, or sense of fun, or sense of like what’s sexy or cool or tough.” What do you do to feel sexy?

I wear high heels.

2. “I don’t think the money people in Hollywood have ever thought I was normal, but I am dedicated to my work and that’s what counts.” Do you think people think you are normal?

Abnormally Normal !

3. “If you ask people what they’ve always wanted to do, most people haven’t done it. That breaks my heart.” What have you always wanted to do?

Being loved unconditionally

4. “There’s something about death that is comforting. The thought that you could die tomorrow frees you to appreciate your life now.” What do you appreciate the most about your life at this time?

Love in my life

5. “Where ever I am I always find myself looking out the window wishing I was somewhere else.” If you could be somewhere else, where would you be and why?

In my would be princess’s room.

7. “If I make a fool of myself, who cares? I’m not frightened by anyone’s perception of me.” Have you ever made a fool of yourself? If yes, spill.

Getting crazy in rains

8. “I don’t believe in guilt, I believe in living on impulse as long as you never intentionally hurt another person, and don’t judge people in your life. I think you should live completely free.” How often do you feel guilty?

When i do not speak my mind and suffer.

9. “I never like being touched, ever. People used to say I held my breath when they were hugging me. I still do.” Are you ever uncomfortable being touched?

Touch can create sensation only when love is filled in hearts.
10. “Oh, God, I struggle with low self-esteem all the time! I think everyone does. I have so much wrong with me, it’s unbelievable!” Give us an example of what you’ve done when feeling low self-esteem.

Jot down , analyze and come out with conclusions.

Sometimes memories are better forgotten.
Sometimes they’re not, but over time you seem to lose them.
But sometimes, even though some memories are too hard to even bear, you want to hold on to the BAD and the GOOD memories.
cause in the end, you realize there was a reason for all that misery, that it resulted in happiness.

To be sad is a beautiful thing. To hold your friend close and shed a tear for them in their grief, to say goodbye to that relative you never got to know and to hang your head in sorrow as the casket is carried off, and to completely lose all control of yourself and bawl as the one you truely love leaves you. Its all really quite lovely when you give it some thought. To feel such passion, such love that your willing to show an emotion that can cause so much effect. But when its all over. When the tears just can’t seem to come anymore, and the pain begins to fade, it okay. Smile. Cause you made it through and sometimes, thats the most we could ever ask for.

“its hard to hold on to something that you know would never be yours in any way you think of, you just have to learn to let go and face the fact that while good things never last….some don’t even start…..”

I wanna get lost from my life sometimes, sit on the side and watch the world go by, I wanna get lost and I don’t know why.

Life isn’t always what you want it to be. It has its ups and it has its downs; but you’ll always come through scratched and scarred, but know that the experience is just going to make you stronger. As a wise person once said, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” So no matter how many times someone pushes you down in life, stand right back up, and keep moving towards who you want to be and what you want to do. No matter who you are or where you’re from, always remember you can make it through whatever anyone throws at you if you just try hard enough.

How do I say goodbye to someone I never had?Why do tears fall to someone who was never really mine?Why do I miss someone I was never been with?Why do I love someone whose love was never truly mine?

Your heart breaks into million pieces, you regret at ever chance you had to make things right, ever night you lay motionlessly staring at the top of your celeling wall thinking why didn’t I do something before tonight? Then you wake up the next morning with a brand new chance to do it again, take it and tell them how you feel before its too late, like it was for me!

Somewhere there’s someone who dreams of your smile
and finds in your presense that life is worthwhile
So when you are lonely remember its true
somebody somewhere is thinking of you

When a girl has no make up on, her hair is a mess, she is dressed in rags and you look her into the eyes and say your beautiful, thats love.
When a guy does something embarrasing for you, its love.
When you have no words for what you are feeling, its love


I got across this Meme and stole it.

Here it goes,

Ten things I wish i could say to people right at the moment –

– I am really thankful to all my readers who make me feel so loved.

– Be yourself and you would be accepted.

– Each one of us is a gem .Just need to look inside oneself than searching for it in others.

– I just hate lies !!!

– I do not like people peeping inside my personal life.

– I am emotional but not a fool.

– I can’t find a reason why should i listen to you.My name,itself means “Unconquered”.

– I love your presence around me and miss you when you’re not around.

– I do not want to get married so early.

– I am really bad at pretending so you can always be sure about me.

Nine things about me

– I love blue .

– I can have really bad mood swings.

– I am a suspicious girl.

– Possessive by nature and Unselfish at core.

– I write diaries and they are a treasure to me.

– I am self obsessed too.lols.

– I am a lover of nature.

– Rains have an incredible effect on me.

– I find it really hard to abuse people.

Eight ways to win my heart

– Be yourself.

– Be ambitious in your life.

– Have a caring and loving heart.

– Good sense of humour.

– Get me flowers .

– Love my blogs which are a glimpse of me.

– Respect women .

– Love me the way I am.

Seven things I can’t understand

Am i insane .

– Do people actually love to know about me.

– How can we judge someone at first meeting.

– When is our country gonna change.

-Why do people live their lives like mountains and trees who come into existence ,die and decay.

– Are marriages really made in heavens.

– If happiness is just a state of mind,Why is it so difficult to attain.

Six things I wished I never did

– Trusting you.

– Crying in movies.

– Being blind to all the atrocities .

– Trying to be a love cupid.

– Letting others interfere in my life to the extent that they take decisions for  me.

– Putting on weight.lols.

Five Turn offs

– Bad smell.

– Lies.

– Low mentality.

–  Crowded places.

– Bitchy girls.

Four Turn ons

– Rains.

– Ice creams.

– Intelligence.

– Compliments.

Three things I wana do before I die

– Publish my autobiography.

– Pamper my would be daughter.

– Do something for women’s liberation.

Two words that describe me

– Unconquered.

– Simple Soul.

One confession

I have a crush on you .

what,when,where and how …

I don’t know what I am lost somewhere,wanting something new to happen,waiting for a dream to come true,waiting for someone to come and change my life,wanting someone to make me come alive,free me from all the bandages,wanting to take a deep breath of fresh air.

I  desire to stay alone yet want someone not to leave me and hold me tightly when i say ,” Leave me alone”.I am all lost somewhere yet wanting someone to keep on saying cause i am dying to listen.

Waiting for things to change , my life to take a new turn,things to rejuvenate and revolutionize but what and how is still a mystery.

I am not expecting any answers to unending questions,Neither do i want to trouble you with my worries.I write for myself,Don’t know why but it gives me peace inside that there is a place in this world where i can peacefully come and leave all my worries and move outside  as a new person


What is life !!

Life is  happiness …

“Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.”

Life is joy …

“I do it for joy it brings,cause I’m a joyful girl.Cause the world owes us nothing,we owe each other the world.”

Life is love…

“The more I think it over, the more I feel that there is nothing more truly artistic than to love people.”

Life is faith…

“You block your dream when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith”

Life is freedom…

“Freedom in general may be defined as the absence of obstacles to the realization of desires.”

Life is fantasy..

“The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment ,when you are between asleep and awake ,when you don’t know the difference between reality and fantasy ,when for just that one moment you feel with your entire soul that the dream is a reality ,and it really happened .”

Life is art…
“A writer should write with his eyes and a painter paint with his ears.”

Life is a dream …

“I like dreams of the future better than the history of the past.”

Life is a fairy tale…

“Every man’s life is a fairy tale written by God’s fingers.”

Life is delight…
“A man’s delight in looking forward to and hoping for some particular satisfaction is a part of the pleasure flowing out of it, enjoyed in advance. But this is afterward deducted, for the more we look forward to anything the less we enjoy it when it comes. ”

Life is peace …
“Better than a thousand hollow words, is one word that brings peace.”

Life is nature…

“All my life I have tried to pluck a thistle and plant a flower wherever the flower would grow in thought and mind.”

Life is elegance…

“The only real elegance is in the mind; if you’ve got that, the rest really comes from it”

Life is to love it..

“One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love.”

what makes me go :) :) :)

They say when ever you feel a bit low ,just think of the moments that had made you smile.Recollect all of those that you have kept close to your heart to be with you in times of troubles.When life seems to be sullen and there seems to be no way out of it.Spend time with yourself and get lost in the world of beautiful memories.

Thinking of the times ,when someone special made me feel beautiful inside or a sudden consent of secret love being felt by a close friend or those of when i felt i am being loved for what i am .One of the special ones told me ” i am a girl straight out of dreams”.Someone told me ,” I wish i could be just like you”.These small little words create a special moment in our lives and are being cherished for whole of our lives

Thinking of the times when i did something silly or stupid and never got caught for it brings that awwwwh kind of feeling and i blush …blush..blush…smiling..

Thinking of the moments when i pamper myself like a princess or spend long hours taking a peaceful bath or spend one fourth of my salary on parlor and another one in shopping  makes me feel “heyyy shonaaaa!!!!”.

Moments spent in reading a book ,when i can find myself in one of the characters and i cry with them and smile with them.After completing one,I feel i have lived one life and i am back into another.It’s a bliss i feel and makes me really happy.

Moments spent in absolute ” vellapanti” and when i have just nothing to do,no body to talk with,nowhere to go and i just be with myself.

A girl’s day out with my sweet angels when we roam out in markets,bargain a lot and buy a less lolz..we tease guys out there and live up our lives like back to those college days.

I love ice creams…I would be the only one in this universe who loves all the flavors discovered till date.Butter scotch drives me crazy.ooopsss..

Thinking of those moments spent with my pup.the only one who always comes waging his tail no matter I slapped him a moment back..such innocent love.

Those moment when i feel the bliss of rain..getting wet in those waters from heaven seem to soothe my soul.” let the waters from heaven drench my soul”

Moments when i think of him and think of how  innocent and cute the love between us could be.i go all awwwwhhh again.

Moments when I am lost in those beautiful worlds ,i call my dream world where there are no sorrows and no pains.Life is just about being happy and content.Wish,i could be there forever.

It has made me all smile and smile and smile

🙂 🙂

🙂 🙂

tell me how ?

Tell me how ? how do i keep patience and wait for you to come with me !!Tell me how can i stop my mind to waver in the direction you go !! Tell me how can I ask my heart to stop thinking about it and concentrate on my work !! Tell me how to have faith  all my dreams would be reality !!

Tell me how can i ask my heart to stop thinking about you ,tell me how can I be mentally and physically present at places where you aren’t with me .

Tell me how not to imagine you lying by my side and looking into my eyes.Where words become superfluous and silence speaks it all.

Tell me how not to dance with you in my thoughts when my heart is happy inside.

Tell me how can I not imagine you holding me in your arms in those wet,rainy evenings when i get lost in those beautiful worlds.

Tell me how not to miss you when i feel all mush around.

Tell me how not to be wanting to be with you in those happy moments of yours , how not to be wanting to spend some lonely time with you.

Tell me what to do when i just want to climb up into your arms and cuddle you like a baby.

Tell me how not to get lost on those silent beaches at nights with you,when i am hurt,all i need is you.

And if you can’t answer any of these,Just tell me how to be happy without you ?

Sometimes,you just don’t have control over things and they turn out to be after another,they cling on to you like its been planned your day is gonna be spoiled.Had one of those today.

Early morning,I got up late—late means irritation,fight with mom,leaving breakfast and hurrying up to get hurt.I did all of it.And I swear !! at times the rain pisses me off too.Roads being broken,water accumulated,dirty muddy water…yakked…..And to the heck of it, a car poured it all on me because he was the only person in this world getting late for office.Feel like smashing his head on the wall.

It wasn’t enough , you know!!! Just because i was wearing a knee length Capri , I had to tolerate those dirty looks of middle aged men..Bastards,they are..They have their kids turning adults and can’t take their eyes off a girl at this age too..I hate such breed of men !! Aunties , add on to me frustration cause they give me the same dirty looks as if  what crimes had i committed.

It still isn’t done..there was still much to ruin my day.The most ambitious Indians,traffic police who aim to rob every single vehicle that passes by them.One of them had stopped my cab driver and was treating him like a dog. I had to apologize for no mistake of mine and i felt so helpless.All they need is a 500 bug and they can sell their souls for it.Dr.Faustus was a much better man ,he had kept the price of his soul for 25 years of luxurious life.hell !!! I hate Indians !!!

I shouldn’t say,But I need to…One of my colleagues who was equally pissed of as me,took it all out on his poor bf !!! I hate such breed of men too who do not have guts to tell their partner when they are wrong and listen to all the bullshit !! Can you imagine what she said ,” Tum manhus call karoge subah subah,to ye hi hoga na !!”.And she spitted out some most venomous,dangerous,disgusting and worst of all abusive words,which I can’t think of speaking or writing. What are they in relationship for ??

I am badly pissed off !!! simply off !!!